Thursday, June 7, 2007
I have no time for blogging and people complain not to share my life with the rest, at least i will die being remembered.just keeping you guys updated, I went to vivo and orchard took alot of pics and had fun that day. Going to watch pirates of carribean and f4 some time next week or the following, practically not studying at all for tml paper because i have no mood what so ever, godspeed for me tml.
signing out,
me
Saturday, June 2, 2007
one week since the day, my mind won't stop thinking about you. I tried escaping but i can't. Nature just wouldnt let me. Everywhere I go there would be a piece of memory about you and me. My phone wouldnt let me off too, I put my tracks into shuffle mode, and they cant stop bothering me with the songs the both of us liked or she would listen too..
I got a job at the PC show 2007 at suntec city convention centre, it was fun and I manage to earn some money. Just as I was about to call it a day, the song that I didnt manage to find was broadcasted on air, now even Panasonic wouldnt leave me alone!
I bumped into a part time fortune teller who was actually my manager. I didnt know he could read palms, he was reading one of my friend's one, and my friend said it was so true! I decided to give myself a shot, and this is what he said.
" You once was a very outgoing and very adventurous person, however you've developed a second personality along the line, you can sometimes be cold hearted and logical, which is very bad. You tend to be confused on which part of you do you want to potray. In a way, its like dr jeckyll and mr hyde."
That so fitted me, I asked him another question," then what about my love life?"
He said," you will have many girlfriends, many suitors, however, you will only have one that you love, truly love, and for that it could possibly that she may be your wife. Whne you get married, you'll stay 100% loyal to her and you will have no other mistresses or what so ever flings."
To tell you if you are reading this, you are my one, no other, and damm i cant stop thinking about you!
need to study for med soc now, i need to concentrate. this song, i know you have it already, consider me late, but i want to prove to you that i still bother.....
signing out
depressed
Thursday, May 24, 2007
My mood sucks,My day's gloomy,
tell me who,
can make my day funny...
I've lost my concentration,
I am so senseless,
I've lost the love of my life,
however could I be so careless....
The day goes by,
The nights grow long,
Tell me how,
Now, that you are gone....
Memories so fond,
Quarrels so fierce,
At times,
It brought me to tears...
Now that it's over,
how is life to move on,
Try to go back,
but the starting point's gone....
It's time to stop,
It's to say goodbye,
this is a short story,
of a lonely guy....
signing out,
the broken poet
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Last night, I went to watch shrek the 3rd. with my girlfriend, geraldine chow chia hui, aiyo so not happy that i always call her her her....Anyway, ya it was a happy day, o well i forgot wad happened already for the past few days....too bad....haizkk
signing out,
in the midst of lecture.
Alright I think I've kept you all in suspense enough. We last left of with our suay boy left at the back without any form of commuinication.
I had already sent my friend home. However, suay boy was no where to be found....
His girlfriend called and she sounded quite worried? But anyway we are getting side track now arent we... I received an unknown number, fard got to call me via an indian guy's phone.
Running halfway, suay boy, er.... puked! yeah how suay can you carry on right
hahaha
My dad then decided to get his van down and fetch us back, in a way, an assed up day, turned up with a complimentary ending
the end
signing out,
anti climax
I had already sent my friend home. However, suay boy was no where to be found....
His girlfriend called and she sounded quite worried? But anyway we are getting side track now arent we... I received an unknown number, fard got to call me via an indian guy's phone.
Running halfway, suay boy, er.... puked! yeah how suay can you carry on right
hahaha
My dad then decided to get his van down and fetch us back, in a way, an assed up day, turned up with a complimentary ending
the end
signing out,
anti climax
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Every 20th of the month is Fardley's, "suay day". Really, he's damm suay. T was suppose to meet my girlfriend for Swensens, however, all of a sudden she had a headache. I decided to go with my family to the great metro sale along with my bicycle. I did not buy much, only 2 bottles of perfume.I went cycling around after that. I was at the zebra crossing, I signalled to the lady driver in a mercedes to allow me to cross, she slowed down, and then i was about to cross when she zoomed past me. Damm was I angry with that *toot*. She was waiting to filter into the main road, that gave me time to cycle up to her. She looked at me, I looked at her, I searched my pocket and she was curious. I found it! took it out, and pointed my finger at her!
My the look on her face.....Shiok! I decided to go to Semapang bedok and eat, when I reached there, I bumped into my friend. Therefore, we decided to eat Roti Prata yeah, my friend was really afraid of cats, and was frightened by my xiao bai ring tone. Dots...
Fard called, he was on his fren's bike. I asked him to come over. Halfway through, tire puncture. Could you imagine how difficult it is to get your tyre punctured because of a 0.5cm long pin lying on the wide road. Even if you tried purposely to get your tyre punctured, you could miss it sometimes. But no, he was suay. He just had to puncture the tyre during that time.
After he came and after we had our dinner, I had to send my friend home because the house was nearby. Fard said I'm fine, I'll just run. Suit yourself then....I raced off as he took his time, however, the one thing I could not remember was that i took his handphone!!!
How to contact now?!??!
To be continued...
signing out,
suspense...
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Today is cam giggolo day!! took many many pics, and man u lost, WTF!!!!anyway going to do my marketing project now, see you!!
signing out,
kira kan hardworking
Friday, May 18, 2007
ok went jamming todaywas fun
tml music vox
wish me luck
fard let me listen this song
do listen to it
for the guys out there who are attached
sing this song for your girl, heart melting....
signing out,
nervous
Thursday, May 17, 2007
ook now is 1.10am and i just finished my freaking journalism proposal for selvan coming 10 hours from now. Irritating, I have not done my marketing journal, I am so in deep shit. argh! going to slp now. sorry ppl will update you next time.signing out,
dead beat
Hey ya sorry I haven been updating my blog yeah. and just to keep you people updated, I'm doing fine, the only thing that is stressing me right now is the assignments!!! It's all due by the end of next week! some even earlier, ok thats my post for now, I'll be back for another post later if i can still be awake...
signing out,
busy
signing out,
busy
Friday, May 11, 2007
What's settled is settled. Had alot of fun yesterday, went to the zoo with my course friends and fard?! haha he just tagged along. Anyway, pics aren'y here yet, woll upload them when i have them. Although yesterday was fun, contradictingly, it was not.I had to put up with 11 ah bengs from amk hub. Man were they childish. Fard just made a slight comment about them, and then they made a scene and wanted fard to go out. What to do, I stood up for fard, and I also got into the pic. However, I find that they are all the pawns of real gangsters. Real gangsters don't find problems in the public, in fact, they are normal until provocated. Anyway, there was this part where i really snapped because he was trying to slap fard's face. I put my bag one side and stood up. He was about to touch my shoulder when I stood up, but I stared at him so he thought twice. Really stupid as it was, I was ready to fight with 11 small fries. At the end, they came over, 2 of them, and asked to compromise. So, ya whatever, we did say sorry both parties. First of all, not our place, second, we were outnumbered. If only the click were here, haha no fear....
signing out,
pissed about yesterday
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Now, that my relationship is fine, I still have friendship problem. I've not voiced out yet, but I could feel the backstabbing in my course already. I don't like mentioning names, but seriously, if you are man enough?! We should talk things out and clear our misunderstandings, not by going round and talking bad about someone about something that I do not know of! Damm life sucks when you are getting back stabbed by your good friend. Any misunderstandings, you could just talk it out, and not kick me into the dark.
signing out,
late for school
Sunday, May 6, 2007
I don't quite know what to blog today, sorry I've been lacking blogging recently. I was busy out, late now, I need some sleepsigning out,
sleepy
Thursday, May 3, 2007
I'm a happy boy, no need to sad le(:
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
I just attained the tittle of world's greatest jerk. When you have something you want so much, you tend to let it go.... I think I'm bout to lose someone I love so true... I'm sorry....
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
Today I went to watch spiderman 3, and it was really thrlling, 4 stars upon 5! I was thinking for the whole night last night. Am I a good boyfriend? Because I think I'm not a good boyfriend and the first step to becoming a lousy boyfriend is not understanding your own girlfriend good enough.I think I'm a failure at that. Given an example spiderman 3. I did want to go watch with her, but in the end, because we misunderstood each other, things get worse, now our problems are reaching the HELL level. A misunderstanding only results to another misunderstanding and it gets worse and worse if it carries on.
I think what is best for us now is that we forgive each other or else everything that we overcome and strived for will be lost. I seriously have to save this relationship....
Monday, April 30, 2007
Misconception of a broken heartAll that was wrong is right. I'm a happy little boy. Whatever that happened were just all part of mass comm's, commuinication breakdown. I think I need more time understanding my girlfriend more, and maybe give her some free space, free time, she needs space. So in conclusion, I think I'm fine.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Nothing happened today, which makes me confused whether I'm happy or sad. Happy because I don't feel stressed or sad because it's slowly fading away, I can feel it coming, I don't know how.I would like to thank everyone who has given me opinions, comforts, scoldings and lectures about this matter. Felt happy to know that even if there is one not there for me, I still have many, thanks:)
signing out,
happy
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Life just suck!! seriously, I feel like strangling myself to death right now, if that was ever possible. I was stood up today, by who know who. So much so I was delighted that she booked a whole day for me after that seriously "F"ed up day. My goodness I was so wrong. i slept for four hours after coming back from the archery trials. So, I thought that maybe a missed call would be on my phone or an sms to get me excited. No, nothing, nothing at all. "Alright", I thought to myself. It could be that she is still outside with the event still on....Six in the evening, but there was no news of anything at all. Well, I got impatient and I phoned Lynn up to see whether they were still at the event, only to hear Lynn's sleepy voice answering the phone. Curious, I asked her what time she finished, she said 9am! Dumbfounded I was, I could not find the words to say, only a thank you.
There I sat on my sofa gazing at the blank wall above me, should I go cycling? Or should I just wait? Common sense would tell me to go cycling for being stood up the whole day, but idiotcracy made me wait, only to get hurt.....
I was lying on my bed now when my mum came in, I told her about what happened yesterday, and she told me off, that I was a saddist and I always liked to get hurt. I never like getting hurt, I never did....
I received her call and I immediately picked up the phone, and then she said she was going out with her family for dinner. Once more stunned, it's alright if you overslept, but you are going to stand me up after you wake up?! I had nothing to say again, just a bye!
I think to myself, what's the point anymore, I only get pushed away and called back like how an owner would call his dog, which always comes. I left my phone on the bed and had dinner with my parents, only to come back with three missed calls from her. I called back, she was bathing, then she called me back.
Now, she still could ask me if I was angry at her, I said if there was a need to ask. I was not practically listening to whatever she was saying because my mood had been practically crushed after that dinner she had. People do not remember the good parts, only the worst parts. "you are not so important to me." was what came out of her mouth. I do not mind being third place in her life. Did you have to say that I was not so important?!! After all this time for being there for you, I am not so important to you afterall, just being used for cheering you up when you are down, only when you are happy that I'm pushed to one side. I'm tired, tired of all this nonsense, tired for being second best, third best! Tired of you! I pray to God that maybe he should give me an easier path to end my suffering, allow me to kill myself without going to hell, which is however, impossible. Back to the conversation, I was silent, she asked me if I was there, I said I was, then she asked me how come I went silent, I said there was nothing more to say.
She then said I don't feel like talking to you, then I said neither do I, she said goodbye, I said go ahead, and then the phone line went dead. It's 15 minutes passed 12 and I see no call, I shall not call back, no I won't.
It's the hour where words are not spoken and sorry is being said too much. Where I love you's has become a common language and where phone calls are not being missed. It's the moment where fights and quarrels become to common that they are part of everyday life, and when somehow you don't feel wanted but you feel needed. It's time when maybe I should take that splinter off my ankle and walk to wherever life takes me, it's just a notion, I'm still in the midst of thinking....
Love sucks....
Admit it.....
signing out,
Broken
Friday, April 27, 2007
Currently suffering from moodless morning disorder, I just got back from archery with a nice whack mark from the string of the bow. Internal bleeding. Cute huh, my right arm by the oven, my left with the bow. I think by the end of the year, I will have marks all over my body already.I did not sleep well last night, because though I thought my day would end with a good night's rest. She called me around 1am, saying that she will,"see how" about today's outing. The word"see how" is equivilant to "can't go out". I'm there for you when you are sad and when you felt that the whole world abandoned you, but when the world accepts you back, I don't see where I belong in your heart. You told me last afternoon that whether or not you were tired, you would still go out with me, however I think it's only because you were sober, that's why your words didn't count.
If taking the inicietive to come down from tampines all the way to republic to the door step of your class to suprise you was not enough, I don't know what will be. It's not about the big bears or the coucple rings that matters, it's about the committment to be always there for each other when the other party is in need. I know I'm not rich to get you a big bear or maybe a room full of roses, I have the sincerity to come down and give you a suprise. If your mind is full of materialism, I have nothing more to say. Because disappointment is what I feel in myself, for not changing the person to becoming the ideal one.
Life just suck....
Admit it.....